Cold Feet!?

What in the world could I imagine this would happen to me!?
(dear first visitor: I'm living in Tokyo but moving to Dubai in 13days...)
Ok, I need to confess here I was not a good Japanese citizen.
I didn't like Japan.
It was very boring and restricting country for me up till very recently.

I born in a small village in Chiba, Japan.
My family and I left this small community when I was 12 years old.
We move to Los Angeles, USA, had lived 4 years.
Since then, no matter where I go, every time I have cold feet is when I go back to Japan.
I always cried when my aircraft landed at Narita Airport.
"I'm back again...." and a sigh.

I started taking photography about 11 months ago,
and met an unreplacable person 9 months ago through photography.
(of course, everybody around me is unreplacable, but he was something different)
I was considering Tokyo is great place to make money.
There's alot of job opportunities if you try hard. But that was it.
Through photography and him, my mind had changed gradually
and started to loving this country, miss my friends more, miss Tokyo more,
miss him more than I've ever imagined.

Oh yes, I am, no doubt, cold feet.
And I know this syndrome effects only temporary.
Yet, I just don't want to....

Ok. let's go back to packing...........